Saturday, July 29, 2017

Home


I’m writing this as I sit in our beautiful new house. Designed and built by incredibly skilled and goodhearted professionals (not to mention the many selfless and hardworking volunteers), it was completely paid for by hundreds of donors. What was left of our house payment that wasn't covered by the fundraiser was paid for by anonymous donors. We moved into our debt free home this past Saturday with the help of many dear friends and family. Time and writing space would fail me to attempt to acknowledge all who made this house a possibility, but suffice it to say that God has worked in the hearts of many people to supply our every need, as He promised in His Word.

July 22, 2013 - the summer after our accident - found us rolling back and forth between my rehab hospital room and the emergency room next door for various and sundry reasons. July 22, 2017 found us rolling back and forth between our little old apartment of three years and our new house of however many years the Lord allows, moving everything we own (I had no idea we had so much stuff) into our new home.

Nyra is having the time of her life running around and exploring our new abode. I think she especially likes the extra running room (our house has a lot of wide open space to make it wheelchair accessible) and the elevator I use to get to and from the basement (Nyra calls it the alligator, so we do, too). I’m looking forward to watching Nyra grow up in a little country town, where the easmell of cow farms blows through the corn fields as you wave to your neighbors on the way to church.  

There’s something about Saint Johns, something about this house, that gently whispers “home.” We are immensely grateful for his place, and so relieved to finally have a place to call our own, but ultimately this is not our home.

So where is home? Some would say home is wherever you lay your head at night, while others hold to that old saying “home is where the heart is.” When Emily and I were living in hospitals together that first year after our accident, we were fond of saying that home was wherever we could be together. Still others, perhaps those more established in a certain house or neighborhood, have a specific, tangible place to point to and say “this is my home.” While there is some element of truth in all these thoughts, the ultimate truth is found in the Bible, God’s letter to us. It’s there that God tells us where home truly is.

If you are a believer in Jesus Christ as the one and only way to eternal life in paradise, your true home is in heaven. This is true both now as you walk this earth, and that glorious day when you leave this world and dance into the one God made for you. If Jesus is anything less to you than God’s Son, the Savior of the world, then what you see around you right now is the closest to home you will ever be. Whether you find the message of the cross liberating, offensive or irrelevant, Jesus is who He is, and He is the only way to the home we were all created for.

Where is your true home? Your reception or rejection of Jesus as your Savior will determine that. He waits for you with open arms and an open, albeit narrow, door. 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Work Update

Last summer I wrote about looking for work. The response was immediate and I lost count of all the suggestions, references and offers. I've been meaning to post an update since then, but apparently my time management skills aren't advanced enough to both work and keep this blog up to date...

 One of the opportunities presented to me was a chance to write blog articles for Smart Barn, a company that creates and provides wireless monitoring systems for the agriculture industry. The owner and staff were and have been gracious in working with me from the start despite my lack of education or experience (especially considering that my farming knowledge doesn't exceed singing “Old MacDonald” with Nyra).

They also set me up with a freelancing website called Upwork, through which I’ve been able to find small writing jobs here and there to gain experience and build a portfolio. Thus far I haven't been raking in the dough by any means, but I’m gaining experience like a college freshman gains weight. Experience doesn't pay bills, I know, but I’ve learned the hard way what every young man hates to learn: there is no such thing as “fast money” for people willing to earn it honestly (Jed Clampett ain’t real, y’all).

Since I was a kid I’ve always had this dream of going out into the world every day from 9-5 to slay dragons and bring home the bacon for my wife and kids. I think that desire to provide (however exaggerated the dream) is good, right and grounded in the Word of God. But when God in His wisdom saw fit to take away my ability to work at all (much less to provide for my family), my lifelong assumption that I would always be my family’s breadwinner and bodyguard was smashed to pieces like so many other things were.

But I’m learning that, although His provision often looks different than we expect or may desire, God always provides what we need (Luke 12:22-31). For the past four years, He’s provided for us through insurance, Emily’s job(s), and the generosity of friends and strangers. We're confident in His faithful and continued provision, whatever it looks like.

But I'm also really enjoying being able to work again.

-Lane

Sunday, February 26, 2017

What Our House Is Not

Our house is coming together like a puzzle assembled by an old man on a rainy day: speedy and meticulous. I'm no expert on house building (nor have I ever been anything remotely close to "handy"), but it doesn't take a professional to see that fantastic work is being done. The framing is finished, roofing is complete, doors and windows are in place, and the electrical work is in progress. Siding will go up soon, after which our new home will start to take shape on the inside. I’m not entirely certain what will happen when, but as I said, I’m no expert, so we’re just enjoying watching things move along. As we steadily approach the estimated completion date (they’re saying early August), some thoughts come to mind, namely, what is this house and what is it not?

We know this house is a gift from God, we can't say it isn't (Psalms 24:1, James 1:17). But in acknowledging it as a gift we recognize that this house is not a reward. But after all we’ve been through, don’t we deserve a little bit of luxury? Haven't we earned this? I think we both have asked ourselves those questions, but the answer to both is unequivocally no. Here’s what I mean: we don’t deserve anything, but God has given us everything we need. What we need isn't always what we want, just as what we want isn't always what we need, but God knows best and we would do well to trust Him and find rest in that fact.


Secondly, the situation God has placed us in doesn't make us any better or worse or more special than any of His children. We don’t fully understand why He wants us where we are, but we know He is good (Psalms 107:1, Psalms 145:9), that He is wise (1 Corinthians 1:25, Proverbs 3:19), knows what’s best (Job 1:21, Isaiah 55:9) and what He does is for our good (Rom 8:28).

Another thing this house is not, is the end of the battle. I mean that in two ways: first because a disability like mine, though technically possible to improve with enough time and hard work, is a lifelong thing. Secondly, and perhaps more importantly, because a permanent and comfortable dwelling place opens up a whole new set of temptations for us as a family. Now that we have the option to live in comfort and ease, the desire to sit back and cruise through life is becomingo less vague and more of a reality. Not that comfort is wrong -- it absolutely isn't -- but it can pose a danger to the passion and adventure that is following Christ with our whole lives. When we first got married, our desire and plan (check out God's response to human plans), was to serve the Lord overseas as full time missionaries. When God closed that door to us through our accident, our passion didn't (and hasn't) changed, but obviously the manifestation of it looks vastly different than what we expected. We’re so looking forward to having this house, and the physical comfort it will bring to us, we just know comfort can’t be the goal of our lives.


 This video by Francis Chan really challenged our hearts about this whole idea of living for comfort as Christian parents, and what effects it could have on Nyra and any other kids the Lord might give us down the road. It would be worth your while to watch (it’s short, don’t worry).



We pray that as God in His wisdom and love chooses to give us things we like and things we don’t, we would be faithful to use and enjoy each of those gifts with wisdom and humility. May you do the same, not from a sense of duty, obligation or fear, but because the great pleasure and bliss in knowing Him far surpasses anything else!
  -Lane





Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Faith vs Sight

Had a rough start this morning as one of Lane's caregivers called in sick. We recognize sickness is inevitable, especially this time of the year (we just had the flu on Monday). Some days the reality of what's before us simply hits us harder. My attitude and disappointment for having to cancel whatever I had planned that morning tends to always be worse than Lane's disappointment for not getting 100% of the care he needs (an area I need to grow in, hugely grateful for his example/lead in this way). With family/friends in the area someone is almost always able to watch Nyra so I can focus on Lane, but some days simply getting everything arranged is more of a headache than taking longer as a family would be (sound familiar mom's? ). Another caregiver ended up being able to come in for 2 hours before her classes began this am, so I was able to get Nyra around and run out to get a few things done. On the last stretch of my trip home a Granger truck happened to "appear" in front of me with a verse that God knew I would clearly need today....

"Look to the Lord and HIS strength; seek HIS face always." Psalm 105:4

Why had taking on another day seemed so impossible in my near sighted, dimly lit eyes this morning? I was choosing to only look at the circumstances around me (that certainly can look dim & hopeless to those that  choose to dwell only on the here and now) rather than the unending reserve of the strength of my Lord. He alone desires to meet our complete dependency & weakness with HIS all sufficient strength...if we allow Him to!

The point of this post is not to gain pity but to give you an honest picture of the way some mornings roll and how you can be standing with us in prayer. Will you join us in praying that we'd fix our eyes above as we take on today? So thankful that what's before us is not  only temporary but that we also have the perfect strength or our Lord to equip us for THIS moment. Oh that we'd reckon what's ours in Him! Prayer for consistency with caregivers for our family's sanity & normalcy would be a great thing too😉As I close I'd like to share a quote that Lane recently brought up one of the many times we've discussed how quickly our hope and joy gets sapped as we dwell on our circumstances rather than our Creator. It's a paraphrase of one of our favorite NTBI instructors, Mike Sullivan:

"A walk by sight is focused on self and circumstances, a walk by Faith is focused on Christ and His certain word."


Emily


Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Ground Breaking Day!

We officially broke ground on our land today! 

Stay tuned for updates to come in the following months as our house is built. We'd appreciate prayer for safety of the builders, no setbacks during the building process, and that we'd have the right subcontractors lined up at the right times. Also that we'd be able to finish debt free, a major desire of ours especially with the nature of Lane's injury and the amount of medical attention that's been necessary thus far. See homeforlane.com for updates on the fundraising process. Our House Committee is doing a terrific job at keeping this site updated and letting people know how they can tangibly assist in the building of our home!

We appreciate you, friends and family, and hope you have a wonderful Christmas as you celebrate our Emmanuel!

Emily

Monday, December 5, 2016

New Season, New Opportunity For Growth..

We got our first official stick-to-the-ground snow yesterday (in Mid Michigan at least). Also the first official snow to require shovels and windshield scrapers in order to safely leave our parking lot. Can I just say this is one more huge thing I'm looking forward to not doing (with having a garage) next Winter? Growing up I loved shoveling the driveway, scraping snow off my parents cars etc...but also had 5 siblings that were just as eager & able as I. I don't say this desiring pity on any level, just being honest. Lane too is immensely grateful (probably more than I am) that this task will be taken off my list, yet another thing that he used to do without question. Some nights it's too easy to sit and mentally count what we miss and would do about anything to have back for any amount of time. We know and recognize this is ok and 100% normal as long as it doesn't lead to bitterness, discontent, or lack of trust in God's much grander plan. Will you pray for us in this area tonight? We are so thankful that having a toddler brings a whole new beauty & wonder to this fascinating season, but it's a hard one nonetheless. 

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Tomorrow is a BIG day. One we've been looking forward to for a long time. We meet with our general contractor aka mastermind, Tom Motz, and excavator to talk breaking ground. We are absolutely thrilled we've reached this point. 

At the same time it's a step of faith because we haven't yet reached our end financial goal to complete the house. Just the other day as we were reviewing the floor plan/barrier free modifications and turning space needed for Lane's Power wheelchair we realized there wasn't enough room in the garage. After speaking with Tom & our floor designer Brian the best solution they found was adding 4 feet. It's what will be necessary long term but it also means our project cost just increased by another $8,000.

We can't express enough how grateful we are for each of your parts in getting us where we are today. Please don't cease to pray for us. For contentment, peace, wisdom. And the ability to rest in the sufficent & perfect plan of our Father above all. 

Fixing our eyes upward, 

Emily (for Lane and Nyra too)